My relationships and what I learnt

From my personal diary, dated Wednesday, December 14, 2005

To be sure, my two relationships that took place over the past 5 years created all financial ruin that I am currently experiencing. But then again darkness cannot exist without light, and within the sphere of darkness that envelopes the past 5 years of financial bankruptcy and despair, I must search for that glimmer of light, no matter how small or faint. And I must focus on the light rather than the darkness that so threatens to consume and utterly destroy me.

If I had brought warmth, comfort, even learning into another person's life, then I must trust that I have done some good, and that this adds to my own character. I must trust that in spite of all my mistakes and failures, I must have done some things that are right, truthful and enlightened, and brought goodness into another person's life. Perhaps then this is the small, faint spark of light that I should focus on if I want to navigate my way out of the darkness.

If I can give strength and energy to another in times of need, then I have done well.